My heart! Keep abreast!

Introduced by Nicole, we met in last Feb.

It seemed We shared lots of commons: we both were preparing for studing in uk; we both loved in english and french languages learning; we both liked playing badminton, singing, travelling, etc. With you, I had chance to dig out a lovely aspect of Wuhan. You were energic, smart, talky, considerated which is the most important. You appeared so professional on your major, particularly comparing to my weakness on Physic. You concentrated on your dissertation so much that I couldnt help myself to admir you more and more everyday. It was amazing to be your friend, a friend, which I knew clearly about it rather than so-called "like" or even " love". But you seemed not satisfied for a simple friendship.

I remembered you put your hand on my shoulder when we met at the second time(though we chat every night); you tried to hand my hand though I draw out immediately. I wondered how you could had crush on me so soon. I even doubt whether you just needed a partner to go through your loneliness. Consequently, I discussed with my roommates about how to clear my position without hurting you. Finally, I decided to fabricate a story, ignoring roomates' strong support of this relationship. I said I was very angry that Edward still could forget her ex-gf although she stole his belongings. You cleverly felt out what I meaned. You said, " you like him, dont you?" "Yes, I'm sorry". While I was excited that I could keep an appropriate distance from you, you said, to my surprise, " Dont be disappointed. Everyone has such experience. I had too..." Then you began to tell me the story between you and Nicole(to specify, Nicole is one of my best friend who unfortunately suffer a serious disease which is  in low probability of recovery.) I was strongly shocked. I was moved by your perseverance of striving for a desk to study with her; I was moved by your never abandon to her and your courage of promising her that you would take care of her forever. Suddenly, I realized a girl liked/loved by you would be the luckiest in the world and I started thinking about whether to be this girl.

To be continued...

PS: These series of passages are only written for you, JY. Unbelievable, right? Tonight I re-read your blog, including "first lovestory". I felt guity that I never share my current relationshiop with you before. It's not because of my neglect of you and I would never neglect to you forever. Maybe you seldom asked me about that so I thought you might reject allowing him to be our friendship. However, all I appear are only the positive aspect, and actually lots of problems are existing in him and me. I need my best friends' suggestions rather than Nicole's, coz she always said it normally happened. I treasure our best friendship so much that I hope we could share our emotional feelings more, can we?

Damn you again!!!!!! My another long passage is lost, again!!!!!!!

Damn you, stupid operation!!! For your incapacity in retrievation, my article disappeared!!! I should keep in mind to copy my words before pressing " render".

Any way, I still depend you to sharing my deep and secret feelings rather than uploading on spaces, coz he wont never keep an eye on you. ^_^

Celebrate!

One night,

mm1: I shouldn't have broken with him.

mm2: The truth is he had accepted. Clearly his feeling to you has run out. And I know he has hurt you for a long time.

mm1: But he cared me so much in the last term.

Me   : That's because you were in the special period to prepare your PG exam. He dont wanna hurt you.

mm1: But at that time, he asked me to be his the other part forever.

Silence...

From many TV shows, we can find tens of thousands of males that make "forever" promises, and mostly of them broke in the end. Why could the male makes such promises so easily as like having meals? But we should agree that they are very smart, as they know, promise, whether it comes true or not, can easily heat up their GFs' feeling, and finally reach their destinations.

I treat promise serious, so I am seldom the promise maker. I know if some day, I have no choice, but to break it, I will feel guilty so much that probably I couldn't forgive myself. This belief causes me to have strong dissatisfaction to the maker. People couldn't control the future, but males freely conceive that they could. However, promise is magical. No matter how unreal, it warms you and give you the confidence to your relationship. I want to believe them, to believe they will come true. However, to be rational, such forever ones are just love activators, which warn me dont fall into the trap. There're lots of cross in my mind. Or maybe the less consideration, the more happier I will be.

I'm really lazy to refresh my blog, as I'm still afraid of using English, the same as you read my English articles. 

So I suppose I should stop this blog, but using msn- space to continue my blog. None English, but full Chinese.

http://spaces.msn.com/porcupine0205/

Through several weeks’ wondering, I finally choose University of Durham as my advanced study campus.

It belongs to “college”. Surprised you would feel that people in UK consider colleges as more academic and classic that their students would be easier to find good jobs than universities. Totally different from China. Of course it is a wonderful university. It ranks 10^th in overall comparison and its finance department ranked 9^th. Some professionals say these comparisons cannot be seriously considered, as little differentia among these excellent campuses. What unbelievable is, to Britisher, Durham owns the highest prestige except Cambridge and Oxford. Pity is that I can’t stay in UK after graduate to enjoy this privilege.

But little Chinese know this school. Once I wondered, maybe it’s because of her name so that it is not so famous as Birmingham, Southampton, and Edinburgh. In fact, it’s because the city, Durham, is a small town, without diverse activities as much as London. It lacks of the right living style which Chinese people chase for. That is the reason why less Chinese students study in it. However, by contrary, I might get more chance to be surrounded by different culture.

I have sent deposit to Durham, which means I have no more choice.

I was surprised when hearing Fanny said Edward had move to Shenzhen. He didn't even send message to inform me, too busy? Fanny said it might be by the reason of his new girlfriend.

Fanny said she didn't play with her friends as much as before, because lots of private affairs. Remembering last summer vacation, members of HongHong Kingdom, including me, went for sports everynight. All of us were sticked with sincere friendship. No promises, but just happiness. I knew kind of that relationship was frangible and it comes true finaly, But I can't image when all of closest friends and me have become tax-payers or wives/husbands, how the concept of "friend" will be changed.

Fanny said she had been hurt in only one year working period and ignored the so-called closest friend now. She said we could not focus all of our credit, hope, privacy on friends, as one day they would isolate or even betray you. What unbelievable is both my parents had told exactly the same sentence to me. Once my father had a very close friend who I called him Big Uncle(二叔). It meaned he was more intimate than father's real brother. They play together frequently, and even forced me to play cards through night when I was busy for entrance exam. However, one day, Big Uncle stop contacting my father, and even refuse to listen a word from him. Even his wife didn't know what had happened. So it comes out to be a mystery. Mother said my aunt was ever betrayed by her dearest friend. I was very surprised that Fanny who only has one year working experience holds such opinion too. What will happen to me when I start to work?

Anyway, I hope anything stay still even I was told it is only a babyish dream.

I lost a week!

I played a game for a whole week, without going out, even for meals. I can't image I was immersed so much for a game. Last term, I hated games, TV shows, and every non- English thing. Why I have changed so much? I should stop forgiving myself.

My smaller sister is fighting for the entrance exam for high school. I should learn back from her.

Games, TVs, etc, are drug. Maybe they aren't interesting, but you will gain a irrational excuse from them.

One of my friend has passed the body check of to-be-pilot, which means he would own a job with above 400 million RMB per year.

But this job has a serious disadvantage that you should keep on this job till your retirement. Another one is that you will have a inflexible working schedule, and might live an unhappy life with your family.

The salary is attractive so that every male friends of his admires his opportunity, however his female friends strongly oppose it. His older sister even would like to undertake his 3000RMB, a sum of breaking contract, but his parents are excited when learning his success of passing the check.

Before the body check, he was preparing for the postgraduate exam, and he said he had confidence to pass the admission of Pekin University.

He's now in a big crossing. If any one who has watched this essay is appreciated to render your opinions. Thank you.

As far as now, I have sent my materials to 10 universities in UK.

But I still wonder, whether  I should go to UK.

Last night I had quarreled to my father for 1h, for my oppinion to Sweden. Sweden are famous for its living environment, and the most important is no tuition fee and is that people there are much less than UK. Surely, I can be integrated in foreign culture deeper.

However, my father said I was still innocent, blindness. He said UK had worldwide reputation which was proven by the number of UK studiers. He said what he wanted was the best working environment in my future career, and just the name of UK, had far surpassed countries in Northern Europe.

I just understand that I would have little change if choosing UK.

My father always has high expectation on me, though he denied it last night. It gives me great pressure. Sometimes I just want to live a pleasure life, putting down my damn pursuit, because I know I can easily change my goal no matter how much effort I have exerted before. I said to father that I couldn't find positions with high salary but a common one with 1000RMB per month. I know he must be angry and hurt, which in turn I hurt myself.

20^th, Sep, 2005

Dear Sir/ Madam,

Miss Luo is one of my favorite students because of her passion and scholastic aptitude on learning. Considering my nearly 30 years’ observation, a student like her owns the privilege to receive first-rate education as your distinguished department. Consequently, I sincerely recommend this student to you, to support her advanced study.

I ever taught her one semester of Mathematical Physics, but soon, her initiative greatly impressed me. Often after class, she was the person who triggered intense discussions with others, thereby the whole class was affected to learn enthusiastically rather than obligatorily. Miss Luo is still my curious auditor now, inquiring for variety of deductions beyond books. She is also my researching assistant that sometimes I arranged work for her and discussed together. During the discussion, I found her potential capacity on formula reasoning and logical clarification was rooted from her proficiency on theoretical fundament of Mathematics. She has creative thought and critical judgment to typical resolutions, which in trn motivate her to request further knowledge for her own theoretical frame. I deem both of her spirit and ability have qualified her to begin graduate work.

I feel sorry when she told me about giving up the opportunity on Physics graduate study, however, having heard of her even better performance on Finance, I’m glad that she made a right choice. I don’t expert on the International Finance, but people like Miss Luo as imaginative, serious, tolerance are appropriated to the extensive field of Mathematics, such as Finance. In order to help her preparing for graduate study abroad, I will reinforce her some Mathematical methodology that relates to Finance like Quantitative Methods and Stochastic Analysis. I believe she will finally earn the success in your program and hope you to accept her application.

Your favorable consideration will be highly appreciated.

15^th, Sept, 2005

Dear Sir/ Madam,

I got to know Miss Luo one year ago through teaching the course Investment. In respect of her excellent performance in Finance-- upper 5% among 370 students, particularly brilliant in Investment, I am confident that she is competent to your program.

By her great earnest on Finance, Miss Luo outshines other students that, she has won appreciations from not only me, but also other professors. It caught my attention that she always seated in the front, and kept in mind every theory and empirical evidence I mentioned. She had strength to stand out for questioning or clarifying her understandings and what she expressed was so methodic that it revealed how much effort she had exerted after curriculum.

Miss Luo often discusses latest financial events with me, even though she is no longer under my instruction. With well Mathematics skill, she gains advantage of calculating optimum portfolios and analyzing values of investing projects. Judging from what I know, her talent of logical analysis and accurate prediction has combined her into International Financial Market. By the way, we are both fond of playing chess. Not only in chess playing, but also in certain events, Miss Luo can make good use of all the resource by speculating about external and psychological factors. In addition, she has strong sense of responsibility. Once I asked her to translate an essay into Chinese, nearly 60 pages. At that time the final exam was coming, but she still squeezed her schedule and finished it on time. Though the initial transcript in a sense involves inadequacy of Financial English, the latter part seemed much more satisfied that I could witness her endeavor and progress. I am sure now, with Mathematical and Financial English background, that she has qualification of further study abroad.

I’m please she has unmistakable desire to be an International Financing Consultant which is deficient and will be promising in China. Well grounded in the theories of Mathematical Finance and strong motivation for her goal, Miss Luo will earn her success in your rewarding program. In view of all I mentioned, I keenly recommend her and hope she would be admitted into your graduate education.

Yours sincerely,

                                                             Personal   Statement

I dream to maintain stability of a company’s financial affairs. As so concentrated is Finance and Business in Britain, and so distinguished is the harvest of Economics in your institution; it’s my long desire for graduate education in your program of MSc in International Finance.

With high mark in the entrance exam, I was enrolled into the best campus in central China. In my freshman, I had ever connected seven faculties to organize a school-wide fund aiding activity for a cancer sufferer. One year later in the election of Student Union, I won for the Diplomacy Minister responsible for finding assistance or sponsorship from school to companies. By reason of my satisfactory performance, I was granted the honor of “Outstanding Leadership”.

Not only dynamic, but also the academic stage is provided by my current campus. To obtain theoretical analyzing ability and academic exploring capacity, I chose Physics as my major. Receiving excellent teaching atmosphere and strict expectation, I have acquired testing techniques through experiments and logical thinking through principles of Physics. Worthy to mention is my predominant marks of Mathematics to other classmates. Since I was a pupil, I have been interested in digging into Mathematics, to follow its logical methods, to clear how it quantifies abstract objects. Physics and Finance have the same original methods of Math, and that’s why I am able to sink into Finance so quickly.

During the process of achieving my destination towards Finance, I never quit from adversity no matter how hard the assignment is. At the beginning, I studied Finance as my minor in order to understand general conceptions. But later having read the book “Financial Crisis in Asia”, I gradually let my interest deepen, exert most of my effort on Finance and set it as my career path. That book indicates that developing countries strong as “Four Dragons” have serious weakness in financial system. It is the ineffective financial system and irrational exchange rate policy that arouse such worldwide crisis. Then comes to my attentive topic: “What about the situation in Chinese financial system? How to avoid the crises” This curriculum offered by Wuhan University primarily covers Economics, International Finance and Business in Banks. In the past two years I have made certain how to manage financial risk by derivatives, how to calculate value of a project decision, and the basic theory of financial market as well. Subjects like Corporate Finance and Security Analysis have extended my horizon, equipping me with deliberate strategies. To extend my perspective, I also chose Psychology, Chinese Ancient Culture, and Japanese as my elective courses. Furthermore, from my two months exercising in the local branch of Bank of China, I was instructed with deposit operating, loan index, and after-sales service towards customers. I also worked in a local nursing house to practice relevant work to accounting such as recording and analyzing statistics. As supplement of further study abroad, I learned by myself partly of CFA and prepare for Financial English Test held in H.K. So far, I have gained adequate fundamental theoretic frame and diversity of other subjects that I am competent to receive the graduate study now.

I perceive what I have learnt is still insufficient to handle my attentive problem that I urgently wish to deepen my understanding through receiving postgraduate program. Though China has remarkable development in reformation of Finance, she still lacks of perfect regulations to management the whole system. For example, to attract other countries’ investment, government strives for fixed exchange rate while expanding the liberalization. The result is Financial Crisis may be triggered as international speculators increase multiply. Fortunately, China has the largest foreign exchange reserve to withstand the Crisis in 1997. However, high reserve, to some extent, means high cost that substantive amount of investing chances will be lost and high risk exists particularly when the rate is fluctuating. Besides, state-own banks are holding plenty of poor loans under the protective policies, In addition with more closely merging into global financial market, this problem will be fiercer that it is crucial to be managed. To expert on these problems, what I need is further study abroad by learning modern management methods, risk resolving thinking, and international empirical experience. I plan to strive for administrating financial security to benefit business and financial contacts between Great Britain and China. Knowing that your department has a worldwide reputation for academic excellent reward, and considering your course tructure and program aim, I’m sure that my potential will be fulfilled in your recognized institution.

Appreciate for your consideration. And hope for your acceptance.

It's a TV play about gay. At the beginning I found weird and nausea especially when coming up the special camera, but later on I'm somehow moved by their stories. Both gay and lesbian have their reason of falling to be homosexual, and I've learned there also exits betrayals, children and cohabitation within homo, or real love and just some business, quite funny. It's tough to admit someone as gay, particularly for parents. Some are strongly against and eventualy lose their children, others just say" I know. I still love you." instead of asking " Why", and in the end they share their kids' feeling. Some gay guys feel shame to admit the fact and try to be straight, like joining the club" Seeing the light", others safeguard for their rights from discriminations. Honestly, I would like to see gay guys become straight, so when seeing one in the dilemma, I inspired silently, but you know the director is gay too, so that guy is still gay.

This is recommended by one of friends, who is quite unique, and also has great curiosity on gay stuff, like enjoys watching the gay movies&comics, get into gay bbs, and also she has a friend who is gay and has his boyfriend, in Tongji. Sounds astonished that it happened to you so nearly. She said actually many gays in my university, and so are many other cities. She once met a couple of boys kissing in the corner, then they ran away inmediately. Maybe I didn't believe gay things before, and I would just think that they were normal to talk with a little more intimate. I will pay more attention to find out those fun. Chenying also said he has a gay friend who once got on some special website, addicts very much, and even meet guys from virtual talking. There are really many strange things in my world!

I was warned not to became homo^_^. I don't think so. I just accept the homosexual. Actually I have no idea about sex, and I think they judge their sexual prefernce by sex. Or maybe I still feel weird whatever homo or straight in sex. Maybe I'm a non-sexual-preference. Just kiding.

Edward said I was still too young too touch knowledge about that stuffs. I don't think so. I've watched many movies and achieved to some level^_^. I don't mean to show it off, just refuse others treat me as kid. But that TV play appears quite boring in the later part, so I give up the remaining 4 seasons.

Maybe somebody know nothing about pplive. It's a network made by some universities league, and you can pick up the live TV program through it. Like BT, the more people connect, the more coherent and clear you receive.

I always catch the HK televisions to watch current news. The news they provide is very familiar with my living place, and the most importance is host&hostress there have a nice voice and speak with efficient content, definitely not as CCTV.

An exciting news is pplive will add up the Pearl and the Asia, which are thorough-- from children to adult-- English programs with British accent. The news plays newly supply English subtitle, but I still can't understand without looking at it. It's much more difficult than BBC international broadcasting, and it's no wonder why the HK people own such high level of English.

After the IELTS test, what I have to prepare is narrowing down my ideal programmes list for the right institutions, then send materials, such as personal statement, reference, GPA, application form,ect. I supposed to conceive the PS and RF in the holiday, but now, I still have nothing but just the frame in my mind. Root from my lazy problem.

My father always asked me about visa process, to get more info of how much and when for deposit warrent. I figured roughly that the total expenditure was almost my father's entire life's free property, really extravagant, and I have low confidence to deserve the equivalant reward to that big sum, so how can I hotheadedly fly to another kingdom but without any preparation? 

One of my friends with UK master degree said he had spent a half year to accommodate to the living and study, including overcoming a big problem-- the native accent. He said actually there was just the left half year for him advancing, which of course was not enough! Another of my friends also went to UK for one-year Marketing program. After coming back, she first tried working in Guangzhou, where offers lots of experts on the marketing field. However, she came back her hometown maybe because of the failure about finding perfect jobs in internationals, and finally worked for the local government. While asking her whether tons of files about foreign connection needed to settle down-- I meant for her aptitude exerting-- she said little, with disappointment.

All of these stories teach me I shouldn't lose the value of even a penny. I should learn more of Financial English, or be more familar with culture of both UK&China, to spare more time for study and friends, or insert more experience, which seemingly could maximize this opportunity. But if I came back, I could find work in internationals and just work for governmental agency as that friend, what would be left with such journey? As time passed away, all of my passion of outside the country, all of my judgement about our mainland, would dispear, let alone my feeling of speeking out an English word. Is it still worthy with that ending? I'm wandering.

A Friend said I thought of everything too much. I admitted. I become more "woman", and started to worry everything, in case not missing every more worthy thing. Women cannot use their precious lifetime for nonsense, not as much as men.

This whole week, I seldom make efforts on the coming subjects-- I fail to help myself immersing into leisures! Well, I was really tired before, exhuased and I had converse to be a study-only facility. Thereby, I need apporpriate amounts of recreation, which advoid me from tiring of my life, right? So, my friends, forgive me, including myself. Sounds like my weak defense.

I become interested in singing, a little surprisedly. While I preparing my oral test, I discover that a certain link exists between speaking English natively and singing songs. Both of them require you to open your throat, and to control the stream frome your stomach. I had tested it, while inviting my roommates to KTV this Tuesday. And they all agreed that I made progress in singing. Amazing! It proved I was right! Well, I love to find out some similarities within unrelative objects, and quest for some difference from common. Like swimming should not only swim standardly but also feel out the speed and direction of waves-- I mean to swim with the water. I still remember the impressive ladder in " Princess Dairies", which was shifted to be a slide, a wonderful discovery!

I plan to confront many of my hobbies in summer holiday, swimming, cooking, travelling, driving cars, singing, not just English study. Chu said the more hobbies you own, the more ways you can ease your dissatisfation, or tiredness. I agree. I like free life.

But I also incline to chase for my different future, which needs numerous efforts. Anyway I shall go back to my tough destiny.

I was forced to record it -_-. But anyway, I shall keep my word HoHo.

He wasn't in my faculty, but we learned each other well. He was rather shy, refused to charge or decide anything. When we were together, he just listened to my words, in most case. Thus sometimes I felt bored, and even angered for his no reply. Maybe he wasn't my ideal BF, but I fell in love with him, then.

Our close relationship started through SMS, in Year 1. Each night, dozens of messages were consumed. We talked about our experience, emotional affairs and inspired ourselves. It seemed the fictional world was more suitable for us. At that time, I still treated him as my close friend, till...

One day he sent me a message, showing ow he loved me. I believed, and considered it seriously. However, he clarified it was just a joke, and he had cheated many other else too. I was very angry, couldn't forgive his behavior. But most of these, was my disappointment. I learned I wanted to be with him.

We still kept sending message, totally in level of friendship. In the Christmas Eve, I invited him to wander shops for a present of my sister. We experienced lots of lovely and colorful shops and ate many kinds of food I never saw before. The street was full of happiness, freshness, though a little congested. We even met a Cantonese cuisine restaurant, famous for its curry snack. Its master, from HK, sent us a bowl of wonderful curry, which was made by himself. Then we chose gifts. He chose a pair of double-layer-glove, aimed for my terrible frozen hands. I gave him a porcupine-toy, green. A lot of precious memories.

When getting out of the shop, we came across a group, expedition. They were all my familier friends, particularly the leader-CK, so we were suggested to stay through the special night, together. The plan was we prayed in a Catholic church initially, then walked across the Changjiang Bridge. Along the way to finding church, he asked me many times who I had loved with. "You." Then he was silent.

I was trapped in the talk with CK, singing Disney theme songs, and other English classical songs. Mostly, I glanced at him, and found that he was silent to a girl, hands in hands. Suddenly, I learned he had a GF, who was also my friend that I never wanted to hurt ourselves.

Thus, I accepted all of this, quickly , and pretended to distract myself to CK. CK was great in English, so in most time, he talked in English, and practised my oral. Departing from the church, it snowed. The first and the most romantic snow in my life. It was wonderful through the bridge! CK and I used the little snow to fight for others, and competed who ran the fastest. Everything, even the falling snow, the faint lights in Changjiang were my valuable fraction of memory. After coming down the bridge, I met the true scenery of big Changjiang Bridge. It was gorgeous, horrible, with long-peel from trains. You would easily perceive how nonsensical we human acted.

He tried to talk with me several times, but I escaped. I couldn't make misunderstanding towards my friend.

In the midnight, we all suffered from coldness, as no net-bar could be found. In the end, we found a store, and played cards. I found 8 of my fingers were frozen, my god!

At 6am, we got on the return bus. Putting aside my complex affairs, I leaned on CK's shoulder, enjoying the warm moment.

The next day, he asked me whether we could maintain the friendship  as usual. Of course, I accepted, for I believed in a pure link could exit between girls and boys. Therefore, we continued sending SMS or studying together. "He was my most important friend in males." I said to Camille. Somebody said, a close male friend was harder to find out than a BF. And I treasured it.

But, he break up all of these, again. One day he asked whether I accepted to be his GF. I said no, because I valued our pure friendship. Then no reply. Our talks were greatly decreased. I wondered, and asked him why. No reply. I felt out he was no longer my close friend, which means our friendship doomed. I was very angry. What had happened? Do boys really only demand for GFs, rather than female friends?

If I'm asked whether I still have sentiment on him. I would say, none, forever!

Of course, it was my lovely memory, as well as that Christmas Eve.

Till now, I still couldn't believe the result of IELTS, especially that of listening and reading, which are far more out of expectation.

I rang to my father, the first person I told, using my high tone to tell him the good news. " You never sound so excited, even when learning the result of university erollment test." He said.

I agreed. I never value so much a test. During the hard preparation, I was nervous, I ran out of my energy, I imagined how many times about success and failure, I owed so much to my relatives and friends who always care and inspire me. Well, I never expect a result so much in one certain object.

So Flybirch said I would suffer insomnia. I really didn't sleep well last night, but not for that reason-- I kept it secret. I thought I would be complancent for a long time, but I don't. It seems I've given up to go aboard. It seems everything has gone, and my daily life has retrieved. It seems everything has cheated me, leaving me a blank memory, taking out of my destination.

I still can't believe that, everything.

I have prepared lots of topics for that oral test, friend, movie, travel experience, gift, sport star......

My god! I was asked to describe a wedding! I haven't joined one since almost 10 years ago! Fortunately, almost female candidates were asked the same topic, and TV program for boy. In that case, I had a little time to prepare some detail.

On the way to the test, I had meet a lot o wedding cars-- That's why a terrible congestion occured, and forced me to take a taxi-- Thus I prepared to answer the first question-- How are you, as " Well! Actually I feel a little excited for so many wedding cars with colorful papers. It's a good day, isn't it?". I didn't. I was worry to be asked with wedding. But the fate was I could not escape from " Wedding".

The questions my intereviewer asked were quite simple. But I had a drawback that I always answered something nonsensical initially. The result was that she ( a nice intereviewer) always said " I see, I see." and didn't wait for my integral answers.

I think oral is the most simple and efficient of the whole. What you should do is keeping talking in 15 min, while others cost you 1h each!  

I become interested in speaking. It's funny!

I determine to open my diary! In fact, I've wondered whether to for a long time. I had no courage, for my poor Chinese. But I was told diary is your mirror of experience. Nobody can find out my poor skill. HOHO

I have lost million of precious memories.

I shall channel out a lovely book for my first diary. 

My friends

That journal can meanwhile provide me the oral topic of describing an old city, or an old building, or a journey. Significant work!

Well, my friends, see you the next of next month, after my exam!!

In May, I shall record some of my private emotional affairs, which have even been not told to my best friends. Please keep your closer eye on my blog!! HoHo  

In the afternoon, we went to Zhengzhou for catching train. Zhengzhou was the railway center in China, but the station was not so big as I imagined, but much more modern than Wuhan's. (I think stations in China are no worse than Wuhan's) Since it still had time, we cycled the station for a glance at this city.  It was not big, but full of people. A common big city. You could see the people of Huizu-- minority people-- everywhere, selling their food. We learned a remains of Shang Dynasty from map, so folowed by instruction, we quickily reached that place out of our expection, because we thought Zhengzhou was quite a large city. But I suppose my friends, do not visit such " landscape". It leaves nothing but only a green ramp now!

Well, we were apart then caught different trains on time. My train had a lot of blank seat, so I could lay down for rest, but JY's was full of labours. A tired experience, particularly she had class on the next morning.

Here ends the trip journal. As I said, it was an unforgettable travel.

Zhongyue Temple & Songyang Academy

The last day of journey, we traveled Zhongyue Temple-- scene of Taoism, and Songyang Academy-- scene of Confucianism.

Zhongyue Temple had won the title of the most integral an ancient cluster. It looked like a miniture Empire Palace, like old constructions in Beijing, square, central symmetry, red paint wall, dragon paintings in the roofs, etc.  Additionally, its backyard owned some sleazy cottages which housed a few Taoists, but the number was much larger than monks in Shaolin Temple, so it was a ascetic centre rather than a tourist scenery. The clothes Taoists wore were similar as what I saw in TV which gave you the feeling of ancient lifestyles, in particular arriving at where they lived. The temple showed many figures of main heros in Taoism, and of course included the sect's characteristic knowledge, but I forgot everything except Yuhuangdadi(??).  In front of the living house there stood a yellow gourd, about 2m tall, as is known, the mark of Taoism, which used for Alchemy. I remembered it was Monday morning, so fewer tourists added more quiet and stronger sense of ancienty. You could also enjoyed the natural living there for the sake of vegetable growing in separated fields.

Songyang Academy not far from Zhongyue Temple was one of the four main Academies in China. Its style was rather different from Zhongyue Temple, white walls with black roofs, artificial rivers with goldfishes. It seemed more like a millionaire's structure but not a Palace. The campus had two famous antique cypress trees, titled by Wudi of Han Dynasty " The First General" and " The second General" respectively. Strangely the second one was much larger and older than the first one. It was said that it attributed to Wudi first encountering the first one. As the First had been titled, the larger had no choice, but excessively angry that its stomach exploded while the First excessively laughed that its waist curved. This saying could well interpret why Second had a big hole in its trunk which could hold five or six people, and the First appeared like dancing. Both trees was more than 3000 years, but still dynamic and respectable.

It was miracle and rare that Dengfeng, such a small town, could possess Chinese three main sects-- adding with Buddism in Shaolin Temple-- I strongly recommended this place as it was worthy to live for a short term, to feel the mutual existance of three sects, to recognize what essence natives had absorbed from them. If someone who had high comprehension in sects, would certainly reach a higher class.

Shaolin Temple's outlook was quite beyond my expectation. I thought it would be full of monks, while tourists instead; I thought it would be old but classical, while repainted by bright red instead; I thought I could enjoy the well-known vegetable dish, while it had already been canceled; I thought its Group Tower-- tombs of Buddhist leaders(??)-- would be extensive and marvellous, while it just areaed a small ground and seemed like tower-congestion. The whole Temple appeared so common, well, quite different from what the TV showed.

Unluckily, we had not enough time to climb up the Songshan Mountain. We directly reached the centre of Dengfeng. As usual, we first found the hostel. Different from Luoyang, every hostel there didn't supply bathing. Then we varied to find bathroom instead. Nobody could answer us. Finally, we arrived at a large "bathhouse", which surrounded by a MTV ball and a barber shop. Although strange to its appearance, we still held a hope. But, " Only for man" a waitress spoke indifferently. Imaginably, our face turned red.

In Defeng, streets looked lively at night, filled with people and live shows, yet at daytime, they were quiet and clean. The expense in Dengfeng was low, 0.5 yuan for each Sweet-Gourd(??), 0.5 yuan each time for public bus fee, 1 yuan of taxi fee for each 1km. People there were kind. All of them we met patiently guided us, besides, I liked their speaking tune, nice. In fact, I was easily satisfied now, as JY said. The circumstances both Luoyang and Dengfeng were quite comfortable, much better than Wuhan.

That night, we couldn't catch up the last bus to Dengfeng, where Shaolin Temple located. While finding the hostel, we by chance bought the next day's bus tickets through the receptionist. Well, we never imagined we had gone in an irregular tour- guide- community.

A wagon, a driver, a guide, had already formed a " travel agency". Consequently, we forced to follow their routine, exacted with the church of Xuanzhuang-- Chinese most famous Buddhist monk, lived in Tang Dynasty. Actually, that place just left some photos, unnecessary to visit I supposed.

The guide, responsibly enough, introduce Dengfeng all along the journey, whereas I understood little, for I was not used to the northern mandarin. What I remembered was did not paid attention to the street-fortune-teller in Shaolin Temple. They charged you however much they wanted, while that guide could speak out the same, just cost 2 yuan. Our team had 4 foreigners, including one could understand Chinese. At that time I was learning Japanese, when asked what time to gather, I really forgot all the English. Quite ashame as a being-graduate, I could not answer "4' oclock" fluently.

The journal was too long that I had to divide it into several parts. To be continued...

Turn to the places of interest.

Longmen( door of dragon) Grottoes was the most famous in Luoyang. It was not far from the center, but had a large area. The scenery, grassy field, clean river, long hill, made you enjoy a widely vision. There were two main hills, with hundreds of thousands of caves. Each cave had uncountable carved Buddha, different costumed wearing, from Northern Wei Dynasty to Tang Dynasty. The biggest was almost 20m, whilst the smallest was just 0.5m! Among of these, Fengxian Cave, constructed by Tang, was its landmark, which stood every important buddha in Tang's Buddhism. The central Buddha, called Lushana, smilled gently with niceful intimacy, well, had killed how much our films!

However, after many vandalism, many carved Buddha's had their heads cut. I was puzzled how valuable a head was, and why those rubbers refused carrying the whole one, and how could they allowed so many headless carvings full of the hill! In fact, I was quite angry, for after my hard climbing, I was disappointed again and again.

I forgot to mention that, stairs there were isolated from each other, so you had to climb up and climb down for switching to another cave. Really a good way to keep health, we all exhuasted our the next day's energy, and unfortunately JY even had her knee hurt.

In short, this scenic spot still impressed us a lot. From a distance, it was like a honey nest, seems hiding many mysteries.

To be continued...

Food in Luoyang

I think most people like travelling, as is documented the continual growth rate of tourism year by year. Although I'm not an enthusiast, I'm willing to spare time and save money on it, just satisfy the my curiosity for a different prosperity and broaden my vision.

My most impressive travel is the latest one, visiting Henan province. How impressive? Maybe I still remember that feeling for it's the latest. Waffle! The main reason was I had a good accompanier--JY. We were talking all along the trip; Even little things could bring us laugh. She was really a good explainer, telling me about the history, the blackground and even some materials linked from movies and books, more professional than a tourist guide, right? Very significant, although most of them has been forgotten now.

The first day we arrived at Luoyang, my most favorable city in Henan People there shared an evident common: big appetite! Hardly had I reached the railway station, I asked a noodle for breakfast. The bowl made me surprise! Its capacity was about threefold as usual. Well, I just finished the beef, and a fifth of noodle. Luoyang was aslo famous for its street culture--snack, in fact, I wondered every big citiy and small town in China owe their traditional catering streets, appealing and affluent. A round thing seize my view. I thought it was a pomegranate, actually, a steamed sandwich (??) within pork and little soup. I had never seen such round, and such red a bun before. Perharps double size as usual. In the evening, we had our supper in a famous restaurant--ZhenBuTong, pressed in tourist tutorial. A waitress recommend us soup-dish, which can only be found in Luoyang. There was a species which contained 4 type of soup, plum, fish ball, white carrot( ?? I forgot the exact name) and another one I really forgot-- JY, you must give complement after reading it-- In fact, I can't depict them more detail with English, but we can refer to JY's Chinese description. What I wanted to emphasize was the bowl's size, similar as that of noodle. We were troubling how to finish them, but surprised to find that a woman alone seated behind us, had a species and an additional can(??) of buns! We were joking about how many buns were in such can, and JY even asked the waitress to measure the diameter, 31cm!! Almost 4 times as usual! How can just one person finished such immense food! However, when walking around the restaurant by chance, I found every desk full of big plants, big bowls and big appetite. Marvelous!